"Daring greatly means the courage to be vulnerable. It means to show up & be seen. To ask for what you need. To talk about how you're feeling. To have the hard conversations." - Brene Brown
Today is just one of those days that feels like "meh" for no reason at all, and as much as I know that it's okay to have those days, I feel a little guilty saying it out loud. I know I can't be chipper and on top of everything every day, and that's okay, but I wouldn't necessarily want you to know that. I don't want to bring anyone down, you know? But today I'm tossing my "highlight reel" (the happy feels) to the side and sharing what I'm really feeling in this moment hoping that you know it's okay to have "bleh" days too!
I ran into one of my good girlfriends, Tovi, today at the coffee shop, what we thought was going to be just a hug and a quick hello turned into an hour of just putting our gunk on the table! It felt good. There's so much goodness in both of our lives, and we praise God for that, but sometimes you just have to share with someone else, get vulnerable, feel it... Like let yourself feel it, cry, talk, write, whatever helps you "feel".
I think for myself, with all of the praise and thanksgiving in my life I shouldn't have gloomy days like this! As I'm writing this, I'm battling the guilt for having a melancholy day and sharing with you. Total Lie! Not that I'm saying we should all just walk around, mope, and feel sad, and ignore our blessings, but my point is, it's okay to feel, it's okay that not everyday feels like rainbows & butterflies.
My sweet boyfriend called me this morning on his way to work (a moment I look forward to everyday), and I got honest, and shared with him that I was feeling a little bit more mellow and emotional today, and that my head felt like it was in the clouds. I even apologized, as I would love to be this bubbly girlfriend that can always hold things together, constantly lifting him up, and being this "unicorn girl". A little unrealistic maybe? Haha. I guess I forgot that I'm human and sometimes I just need to "have a moment". His response was kind, loving, and his grace reminded me of the way God loves us with His grace, and the grace I should be giving myself. In fact, I read a quote recently, it was something simple like this, "God forgot & so should you." How true is that in so many ways, even if it's just regarding a day where you're feeling "ho-hum" and just need to love on yourself a little extra. His grace is so big for us, so we could probably be a little easier on ourselves, right? I think so.
So here I am, a day with "all the feels" turned into this blog post. Not to bring you down, but with the greatest hope to share that it's okay to have emotional days. And ladies, you know we have them... We have hormones going in a million different directions, God created us that way! So here's the deal, just go ahead & ask for a hug, talk it out, cry, take a break from some responsibilities if you can, and just feel... even if you don't know what it is that you're feeling. The pictures that I post on social media may be fun, exciting, and they're definitely me and an insight to my life... But some days the "highlight reel" just needs to get a little bit more real. ;)
Praying beautiful peace, blessings, and joy over every single person that reads this and that might be feeling a little more emotionally exhausted today. Know that it's okay to feel and even to get a little extra vulnerable, and most importantly, love on yourself a little extra!